Tuesday, April 21, 2020

कुछ नहीं करते है...

आज ज़रा देर से जगते है
आँखों के प्यालों में नींद भरते है
चलो कुछ नहीं करते है

आज फासलों को दूर रखते है
एक दुसरे की आँखों में तकते है
चलो कुछ नहीं करते है

आज शब्दों को आराम देते है
ख़ामोशी के स्वाद को चखते है
चलो कुछ नहीं करते है

आज यादों में घूमने निकलते है
परेशानियों को खूंटी पे रखते है
चलो कुछ नहीं करते है

सबके लिए रोज़ ही जीते है
आज खुद को आगे रखते है
चलो कुछ नहीं करते है

Sapna.. 

Monday, April 20, 2020

Closure...

I do not love you anymore
Thoughts turn to you unwittingly
Is it my heart or my brain
Who is in need of a rigid closure? 

For I am happy where I am
And barely do I have expectations
Those that hinder my blissful life
Or pierce my soul to cause seizure

There is nothing that I really want
Only the need to be understood
Independence and resolution doesn't infer
That I can't be emotionally insecure

I know life is insanely uncertain
And all I have will one day go
It tumbles my plans upside down
But I refuse to give in to fear

You sure secured a special place 
One I thought that you deserved
 There's no room for even your thoughts
Detachment is my eternal cure

So dear brain, stop taking me back
To where I could not be myself
Where constant pain jabbed my heart
The grief of it, I no more endure. 


Sapna..

Saturday, April 18, 2020

Last time...

You were right in front of me 
But I could not touch you
I wanted you hug you so bad
That reality felt so cruel

The night outside was pleasant
Inside I felt icy, frozen and cold

How could you forget those laughs
The cries, the fights, the love
And the way our eyes talked

The times we spent together
Spiralled in my head continually
The pain my heart felt was new
Something I thought I'd never know

I tried to look calm and think straight
Tears rolled down as if not in control

This is it, is all you said 
Does that mean no talking to you? 
Or was it no more meeting?

Were you walking out of my life 
Just the way you entered?
I felt powerless then
and I feel helpless now

Did you not know how it felt
Were you unaware or just too tough

My heart shattered without noise
When you said have a good life. 
Would I ever have one without you? 
  
Without a word, I turned
Away from what my heart wanted
To what life had in store for me
Towards an ethereal eternity


Sapna.. 

The first time...

When you first walked me home 
I closed my eyes and let go
My arms were eager to hold you
Desperate to feel the warmth
That melted and moulded my heart

I put my ear on your chest
Felt beats of your heart resonate
In the room uninhabited 
The house was eerily silent
Affirming the absence of its inmates

You held me close for the first time
And I wanted the moment to freeze 
Those soft lips gently touched mine
Don't know how to describe how I felt
Perhaps a mix of anxiety and daze

Assuming to have read my thoughts
You pulled back, looked into my eyes 
Comfortingly kissed my forehead
Gifting my soul unusual inner peace 

Don't know when I began to drift away
Gliding through feelings unknown
When our hands finally left each other
And I was walking out the empty place
Uncertain of our togetherness in future

I turned around to give a bleak smile
You did not smile back or say a word
And quietly just walked inward
I knew not that you were doubtless
That I would be with you till the end

Sapna.. 

Friday, April 17, 2020

जिया ही नहीं..

यूँ ही कैसे गुज़र गयी तू ऐ ज़िन्दगी
हमने ठीक से तुझे जिया ही नहीं

जज़्बातों की चाबी तेरे हवाले 
तू ही खोले ख़ुशियों के ताले
हाथों से इतनी जल्दी क्यूँ फिसले
हमने महसूस कुछ किया ही नहीं

प्यार भरा हर दिल में यहाँ
उसने यहाँ बड़ा दर्द भी सहा
चोट को खुला छोड़ गई कहाँ
हमने ज़ख्म अपना सिया ही नहीं

ताकत को यहाँ बहुत गुरूर
सबको है बुलंदी का सुरूर
कामयाबी से अब कर ना दूर
हमने इस मै का घूँट पिया ही नहीं

सुबह की धूप सी गुनगुनी
छोटे छोटे लम्हो से तू बुनी
हज़ारों बार कही और सुनी
अफ़सोस के फिर भी... 
हमने जी भर के जिया ही नहीं

यूँ ही कैसे गुज़र गयी तू ऐ ज़िन्दगी
हमने ठीक से तुझे जिया ही नहीं...

Sapna.. 

Wednesday, April 15, 2020

Once again...

Have faith, this will soon end 
Our lives will be normal once again

Mornings will start up early
We'll be back in race once again
Days will be spent orderly
Routine will set pace once again

Vehicles will honk blaringly
We'll be back on roads once again
Sky shall host clouds of dust
We'll get dose of smoke once again

Lunches will be short and quick 
Friendly talks will reduce once again
Responsibilities will be fat and thick 
Calories will be put to use once again

We'll return home worked and tired
Stress will shower once again
Vacations will be long desired
Hobbies will take cover once again

Leisure time will start to dwindle
And all will be formal once again
Little lovely gestures will rekindle
When our lives will be normal once again


Sapna.. 

Saturday, April 11, 2020

Waqt na mila..

Kabhi jaldi bhi utho toh zara
Sooraj ke naam karo apni subah
Khuli hawaaon ko mehsoos karke dekho
Jinhe mehsoos karne ko waqt na mila

Wo baksa rakha hoga almari mein
Jisme honge tumhare tohfe chupe
Un yaadon se mulaqaat karke dekho
Jinse milne ko waqt na mila

Paas Mein kahi hongi wo tasveerein
Lamhe jinme honge khushiyon bhare
Dobara un palon ko zara jeeke dekho
Jinhe jee ne ko waqt na mila

Khilono ka jab se saath hai choota
Bachpane se jaise naata toota
Aaj Bachpan ke khel khelke dekho
Jinhe khelne ko waqt na mila

Tv, phone, Internet se aise jude
Kitaabon se faasle badh gaye
Us kitaab ko aaj uthake dekho
Jise padhne ko waqt na mila

Dil ki chaah kaboo mein kaha
Yeh har cheez aazmaana chahe
Aaj Wo shauk poore karke dekho
Jinhe shuru karne ka waqt na mila


Sapna.. 

Tuesday, April 7, 2020

आसमान...

सन्नाटे भरी शाम थी 
रास्तों पे ना किसीका साया
हवाएँ करवटें ले रही
जैसे कोई चैन कि नींद सोया

अचानक बड़ी हलचल सी हुई
प्रकृति को झपकी से जगाया
शांत रहे से माहौल में
संपूर्ण अस्थिरता का बीज बोया 

बादलों कि गड़गड़ाहट हुई
उनका तो जैसे जी हल्का हुआ
सौम्य सी भाप से भर भर के
तूफ़ान का बोझ अब तक था ढोया

जिन्हे रौशनी कि आदत लगी थी 
उन आँखों को अंधेरों से मिलाया
डराती सी कड़कती बिजलियों ने
रात को चमक में डुबोया

प्यासी धरती पर बूंदें गिरी
अमृत जल को जी भरके पिया
धूप में खड़े खड़े तप रहे
पेड़ों को बड़े प्यार से भिगोया

जिन रूखे जिस्मों कि थी एकाकी
उन्हें नमी का एहसास दिलाया
दर्द की धूप में झुलसी पड़ी 
अनगिनत आत्माओं को धोया

जाने उसका दिल फूला ख़ुशी से 
या अम्बर का जैसे जी भर आया
अरसे बाद ऐसी बरसात हुई 
आज आसमान जैसे खुल के रोया


Sapna..